I genuinely can’t believe it’s been a whole year already. It honestly feels like yesterday that Simmy and you came up to me in Grosvenor about that stupid prank call, and somehow that random little moment ended up becoming the start of the most important relationship in my life. If someone told me that a year later you’d mean this much to me, I probably would’ve laughed at them.
When I think about this past year, it’s not even the big things I think about first. It’s all the little moments with you that I’ll probably remember forever. The steps where we sat for hours after our first date, just talking and being together, and then straight after was where I asked you to be my girlfriend. I don’t think either of us realised at the time how many memories that little spot would end up holding for us.
Then there was 46 Kingswood Road, which honestly deserves its own chapter. The amount of time we spent there, the amount of lectures I skipped because I’d rather be with you, and the amount of times Sol and Kirtan probably wanted to kick you out because you were basically living there 😂. Some of my favourite memories are honestly just us doing absolutely nothing. Bed rotting for hours, ordering those Goodfella chicken toasties that you somehow NEVER managed to finish, watching stuff, talking rubbish and just enjoying being around each other. It sounds so simple, but those are the moments I treasure the most.
And then there were all our nights out. Somehow every night followed the exact same routine. Dirty Martini, then Albert Schloss for the photo booth and maybe a cheeky drink, and eventually ending up in Blues. There was probably a 50/50 chance we'd argue by the end of the night 😂, but genuinely, even when you were shouting at me, there is nobody else in the world I'd rather be getting shouted at by. I love every side of you, even the side that makes me question why I voluntarily put myself through this 😂.
I obviously can't talk about our relationship without mentioning what we like to call the Great Argument. Probably one of the lowest points we've ever had, and the fact that we actually broke up for a whole day feels ridiculous now. We couldn't even make it through one day without realising that neither of us actually wanted a life without the other. As horrible as that time was, I'm almost grateful we went through it because it showed me just how much you mean to me and how much I genuinely don't want to lose what we have. We've had arguments, we've annoyed each other, we've both said things we didn't mean, but somehow we've always found our way back to each other.
One of my favourite memories has to be our London trip too. Getting to experience somewhere completely different together, beating you at swimming because obviously I'm just better 😂, and then somehow missing our night out for reasons that probably don't need to be written down here 😂. It's moments like that which make me realise how lucky I am that I get to experience life with you.
I also genuinely love annoying you. The amount of ragebaiting I do just because I know exactly what will wind you up is ridiculous, and somehow I still find it hilarious every single time 😂. Seeing your face when I've said something purely to get a reaction might genuinely be one of my favourite hobbies.
But underneath all the stupid arguments, the ragebaiting, the teasing and everything else, I hope you know how much I genuinely love you. I don't always show my feelings properly, and I know I'm not always the best at putting everything I feel into words, but you mean more to me than I could ever properly explain.
I love your little bum chin, your round face, your smile, your laugh, your stupid little reactions to everything I do, and every other little thing that makes you you. I wouldn't change any of it. And I hope you never change either, not just how you look on the outside, but especially who you are on the inside. The person I met in Grosvenor is the person I fell in love with, and I hope I get to keep loving that same person for many, many years.
You've seen every version of me over this past year. The good, the bad, the annoying, the stupid, the stressed, the childish, and probably the most unbearable version of me after you've caught me ragebaiting you for the 500th time 😂. And somehow, through all of it, you've stayed.
You've become my best friend, the person I want to tell everything to, the person I want beside me when things are good and when they're shit, and genuinely the person I can't imagine doing life without anymore.
This year hasn't been perfect, and I don't want it to be. We've had amazing days, stupid days, arguments, laughs, nights out, lazy days, and everything in between. But every single part of it is ours. And if I could go back to that day in Grosvenor and tell myself where we'd be a year later, I wouldn't believe it.
I'm so grateful that stupid prank call brought you into my life.
There's something else that makes this whole thing even more special to me, and that's our song, Udaarian by Satinder Sartaaj.
By the time you're reading this, the song should already be playing in the background, because obviously I couldn't just make you a normal card. But I wanted it playing while you read this because it's our song, and I genuinely don't think there could be a better song to represent us.
The meaning behind Udaarian reminds me so much of how I feel about you. It's about being so deeply in love with someone that you almost feel like you're floating or flying, completely swept up and lost in the feeling of loving them, but with that little ache underneath when the person you love isn't right there with you.
And I think that's exactly how I'm going to feel during my placement year.
Until then, I just want you to know that even when you're not physically next to me, you're still going to be such a massive part of my life.
I wanted you to open this and feel how much thought and time went into it.
Because you deserve that.
You deserve to know how loved you are.
You're my best friend.
You're my favourite person.
You're the person I want beside me when life is amazing, when life is shit, when we're laughing until we can't breathe, when we're arguing over something stupid, and when we're doing absolutely nothing together.
You're the person I choose.
And I hope you always know that.
So while our song is playing and you're reading all of this, I hope you think about everything we've been through over this past year.
And most importantly, think about how all of it started from one stupid prank call.
I wouldn't change a single thing.
Not the good.
Not the bad.
Not even the Great Argument.
Because every single part of it brought me to you.
And if this is only year one, I genuinely can't wait to see what the rest of our story looks like.
Happy one year my love.
Thank you for being my best friend, my favourite person, my biggest headache, and the person I love more than I could ever properly put into words.
I love you endlessly.
Here's to us. ❤️
Happy 1 year.
I love you. Always. ❤️
